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[elvenjaneite]

I've been thinking lately about how my world and ambitions seem to have shrunk over the past few years. I used to be excited about traveling and I used to want to be known for something. These days, it seems like I just want to make it through. I don't know if it's been the trump years + pandemic, or what, but it's a definite shift for me and I'm not sure yet if it's a positive or negative one. 

Anyway, we both have covid and it stinks! We're fine, not serious cases, but the last two months have just been one thing after another. I'm slowly starting to feel a bit better so hopefully we'll both continue to improve. We've basically been lying around the house since Friday. Ugh! Hoping that June is a little less intense.

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[katharhino]

I've often felt like my ideas have gotten smaller. And like you, I can't decide whether this is a good thing. It may of course be a temporary effect, and depending on how things go in the next few years maybe we'll have the chance to dream big again. But maybe it's more of a realignment to core values. I don't really know.

I'm sorry, again, about the Covid!!

[elvenjaneite]

I really don't know either! I feel like it's one of those things you have to muddle through and then hopefully get some clarity later on.

[salamandras]

Oh no! I'm glad you don't have serious covid cases, but that's no good. I hope you recover quickly. I feel similarly about the last 5+ years, although not quite the same - lots of 'I just want to get through this' feelings.

[elvenjaneite]

Thank you!

Yeah, I think everyone has had some version of that, but of course they don't always overlap. <3

[rhysiana]

I'm so sorry about the COVID, and I've also really been feeling this lately. My mom asked me the other day how things were going, and I just stared at her for a minute before saying, "Absolutely nothing changes from one day to the next. It's going exactly the same way it's been going for the past two and a half years." I miss being able to *plan* things. Even just little ones. But at least we have been making it through?

[elvenjaneite]

Yep. And even if you do make plans, they feel more tentative, because everything's still so unsettled. I feel like people talked a lot about the effects of this on mental health in the beginning of the pandemic, but it's still there!